Silence

Hey everyone,

My name is Devin and this is my first blog and I do not know how to work this thing so I had to teach myself how to use this.  So far, I think I did a pretty darn good with this! I figured it would be a fun experience for me to make one and blog about myself.  As you can tell my title said "The Imperfect Life of Mine" and what that means is that my life is not so perfect as people think it is.  I was born Deaf so therefore, I do have a disability.  I have heard a lot of people would say mean comments about us saying that we cannot do anything because we cannot hear.  I totally disagree with that,  we can do anything but hear.  We can ride a bike, drive a car, socialize with friends so therefore, we are people like you.  I was diagnose  with hearing disability at the age of 15 months old.  I was at my grandmother's house and she was babysitting me one afternoon.  She saw me sitting by the bed in her bedroom after I took a nap, drinking my bottle of milk facing the window.  She called my name a couple times and then decided to knock on the door to see if I can hear.  I never turned around and that's when everything started to shattered, falling to pieces.  Of course my parents were devastated when they found out.  They said that they were speechless and was thinking, "oh my gosh, what is going to happen next? My child is Deaf" and that's when they started seeking for answers.  They wanted me to communicate and right away, I started learning American Sign Language.  

Me when I was young with my hearing aid if you can notice

I love American Sign Language even though I'm not good at it now.  I had a teacher when I first received my hearing aid and she would teach me sign language so I can have full communication.  I was never into the deaf world when I was young. My mother wanted me to have a speech therapist so I can do more oral than doing sign language all the time.  There's not a lot of deaf people in my community.  When I was in high school, I only have 2 deaf guy friends that are the same age as me.  Their name is Nestor and Cord.  I never really got to understand how the deaf world are like nor was expose by many deaf people.  All my friends are basically hearing and that's when I knew that I fit in better with the hearing world.  But sometime I hate to be part of the hearing world because a lot people do not understand me because I'm deaf and do not understand of how much I have been through so it's hard to be accepted.  That's why sometime I feel like I just want to fly away and clear my mind, where people won't bother me...ever.  I wish that can be true but I guess we can't always get what we want.  Maybe God did it for a reason, I used to and still do questioned myself why do I have to be the one? Why me? Why am I deaf?  That is a good question but once you face the reality, there is a lot of people who are disabled and I am thankful for everything that I have today. I want to thank my family and friends who have supported me throughout my life.  It means a lot to me.  


oh and I still have a lot to tell about me...